Monday, October 20, 2014

Inner Struggle

"9 For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you. We continually ask God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all the wisdom and understanding that the Spirit gives,[e] 10 so that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, 11 being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, 12 and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you[f] to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light." Colossians 1:9-12 

I'm reading a book in Spanish regarding how to be a woman of excellence and this was one of the passages that was shared. At first I thought to myself that it's a lot of work to represent this scripture. I do try to think how I can apply scripture to my life. Then, I remembered that all I need to do is ask for help. It is possible though I do know that there will be times when I will fall and make mistakes. 

There was a situation that happened on Friday at the hogar and I was called higher, to step up and be stronger. There was sadness and fear in my heart. Things were resolved, but there's so much to still grow in. I will admit that I feel a little overwhelmed, but this is good for me. There are things that I struggled with prior to moving here and I feel like I need to be here to grow in my character, learn about myself and be molded into the woman God desires me to become. 

Reina's mom

Today I went to a small town past San Jose del Golfo with Reina and a few of her family members to bring flowers where my Reina's dad is buried. Life is so short and it was a good reminder to express my love to the people who mean so much to me.
Driving through the mountains and seeing God's creation was mesmerizing! I took a picture, but it didn't give it any justice to what my eyes was able to see. The hills reminded me so much of my favorite scripture in Psalms 121:1-2 which talks about looking up to the hills as the writer asks, "Where does my help come from? My help comes from The Lord; the maker of heaven and earth." God wants me to share in the inheritance of His kingdom and what I need to do is ask for His guidance because He is willing and wanting to help me. 


Somewhere after San Jose del Golfo
scary road

It's Monday and I arrived at the hogar this evening. I am ready to ask for help and start the week :)