Monday, October 20, 2014

Inner Struggle

"9 For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you. We continually ask God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all the wisdom and understanding that the Spirit gives,[e] 10 so that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, 11 being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, 12 and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you[f] to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light." Colossians 1:9-12 

I'm reading a book in Spanish regarding how to be a woman of excellence and this was one of the passages that was shared. At first I thought to myself that it's a lot of work to represent this scripture. I do try to think how I can apply scripture to my life. Then, I remembered that all I need to do is ask for help. It is possible though I do know that there will be times when I will fall and make mistakes. 

There was a situation that happened on Friday at the hogar and I was called higher, to step up and be stronger. There was sadness and fear in my heart. Things were resolved, but there's so much to still grow in. I will admit that I feel a little overwhelmed, but this is good for me. There are things that I struggled with prior to moving here and I feel like I need to be here to grow in my character, learn about myself and be molded into the woman God desires me to become. 

Reina's mom

Today I went to a small town past San Jose del Golfo with Reina and a few of her family members to bring flowers where my Reina's dad is buried. Life is so short and it was a good reminder to express my love to the people who mean so much to me.
Driving through the mountains and seeing God's creation was mesmerizing! I took a picture, but it didn't give it any justice to what my eyes was able to see. The hills reminded me so much of my favorite scripture in Psalms 121:1-2 which talks about looking up to the hills as the writer asks, "Where does my help come from? My help comes from The Lord; the maker of heaven and earth." God wants me to share in the inheritance of His kingdom and what I need to do is ask for His guidance because He is willing and wanting to help me. 


Somewhere after San Jose del Golfo
scary road

It's Monday and I arrived at the hogar this evening. I am ready to ask for help and start the week :)

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Bus Ride

This past weekend was filled with a lot of fun and excitement because I went to 4 different parties; 2 birthdays, a wedding and a quinceanera.  I had a great time, but I was eager to get back to see the children. I was planning on being back by Monday afternoon, but I was able to find a ride back home on Sunday :) the children and teens were excited to see me a day earlier than expected.

One very exciting thing that happened was being able to ride on a bus. It's supposedly a safer bus called transurbano. These buses started to appear in 2010. They are considered safer because they have built in GPS so it can be tracked, some have cameras and all of the walls have a panic button for emergencies which will contact the police. I was with other friends from church and when I got on there was a turning rail, sort of like the ones at Disneyland (the ones that turn to count how many people have gotten on a ride). There were no seats available so I stood holding on to a rail in the middle of the bus and my friend started laughing saying that it was obvious that it was my first time because of how tight I was holding on. I will admit that there was a moment when I got a little scared. A young man got on the bus and I got the creeps. You see, many people have told me that they have been assaulted on a bus. There has even been stories of people being killed because they would not hand over their wallet or cell phones. Obviously nothing happened and I am safe. I do not think that I am ready to get on a bus by myself, but I'm glad I was able to finally get on one.